When I showed Nikita her images for the first time last week, I left the room to let her watch the slideshow on her own, to digest the images in private for the first time.
When I returned to the room, I witnessed Nikita wiping tears away from her eyes. Tears of joy! Tears of Happiness! Tears of Accomplishment! Although I wanted to break down and cry with her, I ran over and gave her a huge hug. I kept it together for her, but as I sit down to write this blog, my eyes are full of tears. Sometimes I can't even believe this is my life. That I get to literally change the way women see themselves. To give women confidence, and show them that they are freakin' beautiful, no matter what societies stupid standards tell us.
Nikita seeing herself, as a plus size woman who hasn't always had it easy (kids are assholes) looking FIERCE, and absolutely breath-taking, brought her to tears.
For that reason, I am glad the images made her cry. It means she did something challenging, even though she was scared, and for that, she can now and move forward with life feeling like a badass, confident BABE.
Nikita let herself be vulnerable, and I am so grateful to be given the opportunity to photograph her, and show her ALL the beauty that was ALWAYS there.
HOW DID YOU FEEL DURING YOUR SHOOT?
The week leading up to my shoot I was so excited - words cant describe. The day of, I was up bright and early anticipating what was to come! I've always been very shy, so naturally I was upon starting the shoot, but I very quickly became extremely comfortable, and really was just amazed with what I was doing.
HOW DID YOU FEEL WHEN YOU SAW YOUR IMAGES FOR THE FIRST TIME?
I cried. There were so many emotions running through my body, I can't even begin to explain how I felt! I was excited to FINALLY get to see how everything had turned out, and was I ever happy! It was almost hard to believe that was me !
DID THE BOUDOIR SHOOT HELP YOUR SELF CONFIDENCE?
Yes, yes, YES! As a woman who is 5'8", 235lbs, I've seen my fair share of hate within the plus sized world and to receive these photos, to see how GREAT I can look, made me feel absolutely amazing! I left my reveal with the biggest smile on my face, and the best feeling running through my body, and that feeling has yet to fade!
WHAT WOULD YOU SAY TO A WOMAN CONSIDERING A BOUDOIR SHOOT?
DO IT! Book a session and DON'T LOOK BACK! Don't think of "I need to lose weight first" "I wont look like those other girls" or anything else, just do it and I promise you'll feel like a rock star.
IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE YOU'D LIKE TO ADD?
I really just want to say thank you to Sam for all her amazing work! Shes one of a kind, and to create the experience that she does for all the ladies that walk through her studio is really unique, I can't wait for the future and to hopefully walk through her studio doors again!