I NEVER IMAGINED I COULD BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE- TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

I met Caitlin at a women’s retreat a few years ago. I knew she had a huge heart right away. She is truly beautiful inside and out. Keep reading to hear about her experience with her boudoir photoshoot.

WHY DID YOU WANT TO DO A BOUDOIR SESSION FOR YOURSELF?

I wanted to do a boudoir session for myself because I’ve always had a very low self-esteem. Despite generous compliments I have received, I see a skewed image when I look in the mirror, and when I see pictures of myself, too. For as long as I can remember I’ve focused on my many ‘flaws’, as opposed to the qualities I should be proud of.

Heck, deep down I know I should be proud of my flaws, too! 

I had admired boudoir photos over time and always appreciated how confident and brave the people in them seemed, but I never imagined I could be one of those people.

Just before I became a mom I had worked diligently to be in the best shape I’d ever been in. I was more confident then than I’d ever been, too, and had considered booking a boudoir session before getting pregnant ‘as a keepsake’. But then I got pregnant quickly, and my pregnancy kicked my butt. I was sick for the full nine months, ate poorly because of that, and basically ‘let myself go’. I assumed my chance of ever (even remotely confidently) doing a boudoir session was lost.

But then I met Sam at a women’s retreat.

I knew she was going to be there, and was offering mini-sessions to anyone interested. I was sure I wouldn’t participate, but packed some outfit options ‘just in case’.  

Funny enough I did participate, but didn’t wear a single one of the options I’d brought. I lent them out instead. 


It must have been a mix of the positive, encouraging women I was surrounded with, the energy of the retreat we were experiencing together, plus the feeling I immediately got from Sam that led me to get in front of her camera. I barely wore makeup, did nothing with my hair, and wore a white cut off tank top and jean shorts. So simple, and yet when I got my three images back, it was like I was looking at a stranger. I saw someone confident, brave and beautiful. It was so empowering to connect my reaction to the images to the fact that the subject was me.

Years of rampant and constant self-criticism paired with growing, birthing and nursing a child hadn’t ‘ruined’ me, after all; quite the contrary. Those three initial images (plus the feeling I had while Sam was taking them) were life changing.

I knew from that experience that I would someday do a full session with Sam.

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HOW DID YOU FEEL DURING YOUR SHOOT?

Sam may not have known, but when I arrived on the day of my shoot I was an insecure ball of nerves. I had gained a fair amount of weight since the mini-session we’d done. My life course had taken a drastic turn. I had been feeling small and ‘stuck’. It didn’t help that the night before something had happened to shake my confidence to the core. I was not feeling physically OR mentally prepared, but I knew I couldn’t cancel, so I followed through.

I was met by Sam and Cassandra (hair and makeup) who immediately made me feel at ease. They both have a subtle and yet powerful energy that lifted my spirits (and my confidence). I felt comfortable. I felt cared for. I felt seen. I was heard.

Cassandra did my hair and makeup in such a way that I felt my features were enhanced, but I wasn’t hidden. I wasn’t over-done. I was still ‘me’.

And then there was my shoot…


I felt shaky and unsure at first. But with Sam’s directions, her positivity, and her reactions, my confidence grew and grew. Throughout the shoot my nerves dissipated entirely. I was still me, but with layers and years of doubt stripped away. I wasn’t overthinking anymore. I wasn’t doing the photos for anyone other than myself. I got out of my head and trusted myself. Sam made it feel like I’d done it a million times. I felt so safe and celebrated.

I arrived that day feeling small, scared, insecure and sad, and she lifted me out of all of that and reminded me that I matter. I am enough. I am beautiful. I am worthy.

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HOW DID YOU FEEL THE FIRST TIME YOU SAW YOUR IMAGES?

I remember telling Sam that I wished she’d videotaped my reactions to the slideshow of my images. I had no idea what to expect.

I loved that she had put her favourites from the shoot into a slideshow, with empowering music in the background. I also loved that she added motivational messages throughout the slideshow. But what I especially loved was that she left me alone to experience them the first time alone. If she’d been with me, I would have had an audience; someone to react for. Someone whose presence I’d be hyper aware of; not wanting to react in any way to let her down.

I felt so many emotions as I saw myself come up on her screen. I laughed (out of shock and disbelief). I cried. I was amazed by the woman in front of me. It sank in slowly but surely that the beautiful, confident and BRAVE woman in the photos was in fact me. I was in total awe; not only of myself, but of Sam’s talent and abilities to help women look – but more importantly FEEL – their best.

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HAS THE EXPERIENCE CHANGED THE WAY YOU VIEW YOURSELF?

Absolutely! That’s an understatement.

I think especially because I am a wife and mom. Too often other people’s needs and comforts are my priority. I don’t have the time or energy for myself that I wish I had. I always feel like the day is over and I’ve done little to care for myself; and it shows. Not just physically, but mentally and spiritually, too. I feel deflated and drained so much of the time. And I am fully aware that may never change.

But now I know what I’m capable of. Sam helped me to see what’s under the layers, and what will always be at my core. And it’s so much more than the hair. The makeup. The outfits. The poses. The setting. The lighting. The editing.

What I see when I look at my pictures is a woman who matters. A woman who, under layers of doubt and insecurity and giving and serving others, still exists. Yes, I know my photos are beautiful. A lot came together that day to make that happen. But it’s more than the beautiful woman I see in the photos that has changed the way I view myself; it’s the spark in her I can feel again when I see them. It’s like I’m transported back in time.

It’s so much more than how I looked, and it’s all about how I felt.

Sam captured my confidence. Sam captured my cheeky side. Sam captured how powerful, classy and capable I am as a woman. 

No matter what my future holds, I will forever have how Sam made me feel that day frozen in time. To this day (months later) I return to them when I’m feeling lost, trapped, alone, insecure, anxious or unworthy. It’s incredible how that’s often the nudge (or the kick in the pants and shake up) I need to remember I’m more than all of that.

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WOULD YOU RECOMMEND THIS EXPERIENCE TO OTHER WOMEN?

Heck yes! Mothers or not. Wives or not. Confident or not. This experience from stem to stern opened my eyes (and my heart). I now see myself in a brand new way. I feel an ease in my own skin I didn’t have before. It has shaped how I see myself (physically and beyond), and has even shaped my relationships.

The way my boudoir session with Sam has changed me is not something you can put a price tag on. I will always and forever be eternally grateful for how Sam put me in front of myself and helped me admire who I saw. It’s something I don’t think I’d ever (truly) felt before.

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ALL THE FUN HAPPENS OUTSIDE OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE- TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

I had so much fun photographing Miss J when she decided it was time to get out of her comfort zone and try something new, after she has smashed many goals for herself this year. Keep reading about her experience below!

WHAT MADE YOU WANT TO DO A BOUDOIR SHOOT?

I wanted to do something to celebrate myself, to congratulate myself, for accomplishing all that I have and for finally being at a place in my life where I was truly in love with myself. I reached a lot of goals in the last year that I never thought possible. This growth that I had achieved mentally and physically is what helped me consider a boudoir photo shoot because I wanted to flaunt what a badass I am by stepping out of my comfort zone.

Anytime I have ever stepped out of my comfort zone in any aspect of my life I have not regretted it as every experience is a learning opportunity. This has become a major prerequisite in learning to love myself, but I still kept telling myself “just lose 10 more lbs then do it”.   As I usually do, eventually I got sick of this mentality, it was the same mentality that made me procrastinate getting my health and happiness on track in the first place.

So I decided that because I was turning 30, single, now living in the city in a space of my own, advancing my career as a Nurse, and flourishing my friendships with soul fulfilling experiences, I found myself the happiest I had ever been and I wanted this documented in order to reflect on this part of my life in the future. I then found Crave Boudoir on Instagram and instantly sent an email to Samantha because I loved all of her photos and here we are now. 

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HOW DID YOU FEEL DURING YOUR SESSION?

Considering I was stepping out of my comfort zone I felt really comfortable with Samantha. I have zero modeling experience and never in my entire life have I ever shown that much skin to be photographed (this was a big deal for me). The fact that I felt comfortable enough to go topless speaks wonders about how great this experience was. Samantha really made me feel like a pro and knew exactly what she was doing.  

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HOW DID YOU FEEL WHEN YOU SAW YOUR IMAGES FOR THE FIRST TIME?

Honestly, at first I wasn’t even sure I was looking at myself. I was looking at a sexy, mature, confident model. I felt proud of myself for having the courage to do this. I felt accomplished and beautiful in every way. I was happy I didn’t wait to lose more weight before doing this, and I became more accepting of the body parts I am self-conscious of. I was content with my progress thus far and felt even more motivated to crush goals, because if I can get this far, I can keep going. The boost of self-confidence I got from seeing these photos is unreal, I fell a little deeper in love with myself and I am so grateful for that.

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WOULD YOU RECOMMEND THIS EXPERIENCE TO OTHER WOMEN?

I have and will continue to encourage other women around me to consider this experience.  Since showing my photos to others I’ve gotten feedback such as: “Good for you, I could never do something like that”, and “Where did you get the confidence to do that?” These comments are coming from some of the most gorgeous, intelligent, loveable women I know. It made me realize just how far I have come with my self-love and I wish that these women could see themselves in the same way. If there is one thing I have learned it is that self-care is so important but not always easy, as women we need to make sure we make this a priority and focus. What better way than to have an amazing photographer focus her lens on you for a few moments, a few moments that will bring you unmeasurable happiness,  growth, and pride.

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As you can see, the confidence is radiating from Miss J. The feeling doesn’t fade after the photo shoot. The images serve as a reminder to you about how far you’ve come, and what a badass you are! You never need to have someone to gift these photos to, the gift is all for YOU.

If you’re considering a boudoir session for yourself. Let’s chat

CREATIVE FUN WITH FINN- TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

I had so much fun shooting this creative session with Finn, who is a non-binary human from Toronto, who I met over Instagram.

We had fun shooting some not so “traditional” boudoir and getting sticky with honey to create some really awesome texture photos, which you can check out below!

I have promised myself that once a month, I will try my very best to do a creative shoot, just for fun, with no intent. To challenge myself to stay creative, and try new things with my photography!

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LOVE IS LOVE- TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

I recently made the switch from photographing exclusively women, to including men in front of my lens as well. My first male shoot ended up being a couples session with Mark and Mario.

I had never posed men before, yet alone two of them at the same time. I honestly didn’t have to do much work because these guys were so comfortable with each other, I think they forgot I was there shooting at times.

I couldn’t have asked for a better couple to photograph for my intro to male boudoir. Mark, was so sweet and soft spoken. Mario was the joker, who had us laughing almost the whole time. Their personalities compliment each other so well. I am so happy I got to capture their love.

Enjoy some beautiful moments from their session below.

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BEAUTIFUL CHANGES- TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

I want to remind women that their bodies are perfectly beautiful throughout all stages of womanhood. During pregnancy, women can feel vulnerable from the drastic changes that happen to their body. I want to help women feel beautiful and to embrace the changes that occur with their bodies during this very special time in their life.

I want to create memories for women to look back at, while their body was going through one of its greatest changes. 

Recently I got to photograph this stunning mama to be. Here is what she had to say:

"Watching my pregnant body grow and transform has been such an incredible experience and I wanted to commemorate this moment in my life. I'm so in love with these images. Samantha captured my curves and baby belly so beautifully" 
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I am a Mother, Wife, Sister, Friend, & Nurse- TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

This session gives me all the feels. I first met Miss A when she came in for her very first boudoir shoot in Toronto. We clicked instantly, and since since then, she has become far more than a client, but an amazing supporter of me, and a great friend. 

I've always seen confidence in Miss A, but after THIS boudoir shoot together, I've seen her confidence sky rocket to a whole new level. 

These photos were taken during a mentoring session I did with a photographer I admire by the name of Teri Hofford. Teri is a body positive ICON, and if you aren't familiar with her work, you need to go check her out right now. 

Keep reading to hear about Miss A's most recent boudoir shoot.

HOW DID YOU FEEL DURING YOUR SHOOT?

I'm not going to lie, the first little while I was very nervous! Even though Samantha is extremely reassuring, kind and body positive, you cant help but run the "what if's" and "I should have gone to the gym before this" thoughts in your brain.

A really great distraction from all that though, is getting your hair and makeup done!! Before you know it, you're this fox in red lipstick feeling amazing! As time moves forward, and the small talk turns into decent conversation, my fears hit the backburner and excitement crept in!

As Sam was taking her photos, I hear her say "OH MY GOD this is so amazing!" or "This light is perfect on your face right there!" And sometimes my eyes were closed so I had absolutely NO idea what the light looked like or what my body was doing in that moment! That to me was an incredibly exciting moment! I was imagining what those photos would end up looking like and what my facial expression would be at the end!

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HOW DID YOU FEEL WHEN YOU SAW YOUR IMAGES FOR THE FIRST TIME?

You may not know, but this is my third shoot with Samantha. The first one was in 2016 just after my wedding, and then again in 2017 for some maternity photos, and now in 2018 for my "post baby" shots.

Each time I got the email "photos are ready!!!" my heart would beat like crazy and I swear the page couldn't load fast enough! When I saw these photos in particular, I was just sooooo beyond happy. Thats me! Yup! every roll, every lump and bump is just pure perfection.

Samantha has a way of capturing your body in all its beautiful, raw glory, without the pictures coming out as "dirty" or tasteless. I felt really proud of myself for scraping up every ounce of confidence to stand in front of Samantha (and Teri) exactly as I am with no apologies.

When the photoshoot was done, I realized that I didnt have to scrape anything up ... I went into the shoot exactly who I was. I didnt have to pretend, I didnt have to act, I didnt have to imagine myself as someone else. I was me, and I am more than enough. I probably look at my photos once or twice a day and just smile. Samantha is the only photographer I've ever worked with to capture my soul in each and every photo.

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HAS THE SHOOT HELPED WITH YOUR CONFIDENCE?

Yes! I would say that each time I get my pictures taken by Samantha, I get a boost of confidence that lingers for a really long time. Each time I look at my photos, I get a buzz.

Sometimes I look at my photos in a public place like starbucks or on the bus, HOPING that my neighbour gets a glimpse and wonders "omg WHO IS THAT?" thats me, lady! Believe it or not! I feel proud showing off the photos to friends and to my husband. I feel like a goddess.

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WOULD YOU RECOMMEND A BOUDOIR SHOOT TO OTHER WOMEN?

I am seriously ALWAYS encouraging women to get their photos done. I recommend doing a lot .. and i mean A LOT of research before choosing a photographer. Anyone can take a photo of you standing in lingerie with your finger in your mouth, but only a select few can actually capture your essence, your unique womanhood, your soul, your heart in a photo. Sam does that for me. And I know she does that for every other woman she photographs too.

I remember the night I was researching boudoir photography on my work computer (sorry work!) in 2016, and Crave Boudoir's page stood out from the rest. Samantha is adamant on ensuring you are comfortable in your shoot and that you are in charge of what the outcome is!

You can wear whatever you want, your hair and makeup is what you want, if you want to pose one way and not the other, thats cool too! At the end of the day, we all have the same goal. To get these photos done to celebrate how beautiful, strong, and powerful we are as women.

if you're reading this and thinking "I wish i had her confidence" please do yourself a favour, and give Samantha a call! You HAVE IT! I am no one special. I am not a model. I am a mother, a wife, a sister, a friend, a nurse. I love harry potter and the twilight saga. I love to sing in the shower and eat endless pints of ice cream. I love pineapple on my pizza. I am a weirdo. I have stage fright. I get gas when im nervous. I AM A PERSON! If you are also a person, you are worthy of a boudoir shoot! You have the right to look at yourself and think "damn I am fucking beautiful!" Please, do it for yourself. You will thank you later. Promise.

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NEW LOOK, WHO DIS?- TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

I have been shooting solely boudoir for over three years now, after making the switch from an "everything" photographer (new borns, weddings, families, product, whatever I could get) 

I made the switch to boudoir, because I fell in love with the way it makes women FEEL. Sometimes my clients have NEVER seen themselves as beautiful. So being able to show women their sexy, feminine side and the impact it has on them, made me never look back from boudoir.

Over the last few years shooting boudoir, I have used many different studios, but none of them were ever designed by me. I was using hotels, Air Bnb, commercial studios, but never had my own personal space.

I am now pleased to announce that I have my OWN unique studio space. Here is a recent shoot in my personal studio. There aren't many distractions or props, because the focus should be the woman!

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Model: Tasha  Hair and Makeup: Cassandra Campbell

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Succulent SuperSHEroes!-TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

I had the pleasure to photograph the absolutely stunning Rachel of The Succulent Six!

If you haven't had heard of The Succulent Six, they are an amazing group of badass body positive babes from Toronto. They have a brilliant series on CBC that you can watch here. 

As described on their website: 

"Our team of "pseudo-superSHEroes" was formed on International No Diet Day 2016, united on a mission of body acceptance. We like to challenge each other by taking on special missions that push us out of our comfort zones and champion self-love in all shapes and sizes. With our new series, we invite the viewer to come along with us as we partner with a special guest ”Succulent Sixth” get out of our comfort zones, and complete missions that champion self-love in all shapes and sizes."

If you've been following me for a while, you know that I myself am a Body Positive Activist. I accept all bodies into my studio regardless of weight, size, or ability. I believe all women are worthy of feeling beautiful and having stunning portraits taken of themselves.

Photographing other BOPO Babes like Rachel and the ladies from The Succulent Six makes me BEYOND happy. We are on a mission to bring marginalized bodies to the mainstream! Enjoy the images from Rachel's session below. Sorry not sorry for making your JAW DROP TO THE FLOOR!!

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If you are interested in having your own body positive boudoir photo shoot experience, contact me here and lets chat about creating a new perspective of yourself!

YES MY BODY IS BEAUTIFUL!- TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

When I was chatting with Miss C about her shoot, she let me know she would be nervous. When she saw herself glammed up after hair & makeup, and we began shooting, I could see her nerves melt away! She was just living in the moment.

Read more of Miss C's story below. Women like this is the reason I do what I do, and why I love my job as a boudoir photographer. If I can help women see themselves in a new light, and see the beauty that was always within them, then I have done my job.

WHY DID YOU DECIDE TO DO A BOUDOIR SHOOT?

I decided to do the boudoir shoot with Samantha from Crave Boudoir for a few different reasons. The first being the fact that I have only really started to fully love my body in the last year or so. I have always been extremely critical of my weight and size.

About a year ago I started to truly love the skin I'm in and I needed to do something to finally prove to myself that YES my body is beautiful. The second reason being that I am getting married in July, and what better gift for the man who has ALWAYS seen me as perfect in every single way. 

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HOW DID YOU FEEL DURING YOUR SHOOT?

As someone who has never even been comfortable in shorts or a bikini, I was extremely nervous to be photographed wearing lingerie. As soon as a met Sam, I immediately felt comfortable, she was so kind and genuinely excited for the shoot. She is truly amazing at what she does. While shooting I felt so empowered, with Sam guiding me and the music playing- I felt incredible!

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HOW DID YOU FEEL WHEN YOU SAW YOUR IMAGES FOR THE FIRST TIME?

When I first saw the images at my reveal the feeling was overwhelming. I could not believe it was me in the pictures. Not because they were edited or altered, but because of the confidence that I could see in myself. It was a whirlwind of emotions that I was feeling. But mostly I was so proud of myself for doing something that up until recently I never would have done, EVER! 

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HAS THE PHOTO SHOOT HELPED YOUR CONFIDENCE?

This entire experience has made such a positive impact on me. I am more comfortable in my own skin then ever before! I have been working on loving myself for a long time, and I've always wanted to be confident in my own skin. Doing the boudoir shoot with Sam at Crave Boudoir was the final step of my self love journey, it was grand finale of realizing just how sexy, bold and brave I am.

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WOULD YOU RECOMMEND OTHER WOMEN TRY A BOUDOIR PHOTO SHOOT?

If you are looking for an experience that will make you feel amazing in your own skin, I would highly suggest you contact Sam at Crave Boudoir. The feeling doesn't stop when the shoot ends, it's a feeling that will last forever! I think that every single women needs to experience a boudoir session with Sam- It is truly life changing! 

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FINAL STEP IN MY HEALING PROCESS. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

This month, I had the honour of photographing the beautiful Miss A. Her reason for doing a boudoir shoot, was much deeper than just having pretty photos of herself. She is such a strong, beautiful soul. Her shoot was literally life changing. Read on to hear about her experience.

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WHY DID YOU DECIDE TO DO A BOUDOIR SHOOT?

It was for myself, a form of healing if you will.  I've struggled with self image and self esteem all of my adult life.  When I was a child, a person I trusted and idolized told me that I was worthless and useless.  Those words struck very deep and stayed with me most of my life.  As a result I deal with PTSD, depression, fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue.  The last ten years of my life has been an uphill battle to heal. I've endured a lot and fought my way through physical, sexual and emotional abuse.  I've had help through counselling, group therapy, self help, medications, natural therapies, meditations, soul searching and exercise.  I can finally say that I love myself and that I am not ashamed of myself.  The boudoir shoot was a final step in my healing process. It was my way of letting go and forgiving. I am worthy!

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HOW DID YOU FEEL DURING YOUR SHOOT?

At first I was nervous and yet excited at the same time. I couldn't stop talking. However, Samantha's guidance and encouragement made me feel at ease.  I started to feel comfortable and at ease. I relaxed about halfway through and then it started to feel natural.  Awesome!

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HOW DID YOU FEEL WHEN YOU SAW YOUR IMAGES FOR THE FIRST TIME?

Breathless and in awe! I totally cried! Watching myself, I felt truly loved and empowered and beautiful all at once!  I felt like a woman and so worthy for the first time in my life.

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HAS THE PHOTO SHOOT HELPED YOUR CONFIDENCE?

Absolutely! It's the best thing for it! Empowerment brings out our strength and self love.  Samantha has this incredible ability to bring it out through the lens of a camera.  

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WOULD YOU RECOMMEND A BOUDOIR PHOTO SHOOT TO OTHER WOMEN?

YES, in a heartbeat! I cannot express how grateful I am to you Samantha, and to your make up artist for doing what you do.  It is by far the best thing I have done for myself.  I feel empowered and free. Thank you. 

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THE SAUCY REDHEAD. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

This year I re-connected with my college buddy, and badass photographer Andrea Hunter.

It's always a bit intimidating photographing another photographer, but we had so much fun, and Andrea is an amazing model as well, she made my job a breeze.

WHY DID YOU WANT TO DO A BOUDOIR SHOOT?

I wanted to do a boudoir shoot for my boyfriend for our 1 year anniversary. I've shot so many woman wanting to do the same things for their significant others, and never really had the courage to do it myself until I realized hey im almost 30 and my bodies not getting any better, so why not do it now!!

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HOW DID YOU FEEL DURING YOUR SHOOT?

I felt a little nervous and self conscious at first but once I got into it I felt so comfortable and beautiful and had so much fun!

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WOULD YOU RECOMMEND A BOUDOIR EXPERIENCE TO OTHER WOMEN?

I would highly recommend that all woman do at least one shoot in their life! Everyone wants to feel beautiful and having those photos to look back on will always bring a smile to your face and a nice reminder that you had the confidence, and you rocked it!

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THE EMPOWERMENT OF BOUDOIR IS INSURMOUNTABLE. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER.

Adina is an amazing woman who has overcome so much in her life. She is SUCH a badass hard working babe. Her confidence is amazing to watch. She did this for nobody but herself, and now has these gorgeous photos to remind her of the badass that she is.

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WHY DID YOU DECIDE TO DO A BOUDOIR SHOOT?

I have done five other boudoir shots in the past and love my photographer and her team.  I saw Sam's work a couple of years ago and reached out about options.  I loved the studio she shot in and thought a different lens would be fun. 

My main reasons for doing these are typically in celebration of something.  My first was my first 60 lbs I lost, and a few in between celebrated new relationships and times in my life. 

I kept putting this off and after the loss of my dad and a very emotional break up, I knew it was time to do something for myself that reminded me of my inner beauty.  I was losing confidence and my general Adina mojo, which started to really get me down.  

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HOW DID YOU FEEL DURING YOUR SHOOT?

For those who have done shoots with me in the past, I'm very comfortable with my body so walking around naked or partially naked isn't a big deal.  I believe this to be a form of art so I have little reservation, however, there still needs to be a certain level of professionalism and tact and Sam showed me this. 

It was just her and I during the shot and no complicated equipment.  I loved it being just her and her camera. She was open to some of my own suggestions, especially the one with the smoke and book!  I think that turned out just perfect.  I could feel my mood changing and was so happy, especially during the time I was in, to push myself to do it!

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HOW DID YOU FEEL AFTER SEEING YOUR IMAGES FOR THE FIRST TIME?

Sam did an amazing job at showcasing my images in a slide show when I first showed up.  It was a lot to take in.  I didn't recognize myself in some of them - not physically, but just the confidence that I thought I had lost.  I was proud of what I saw. She captured my essence perfectly.

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WOULD YOU RECOMMEND A BOUDOIR SHOOT TO OTHER WOMEN?

Being a plus size woman, I believe in embracing your body and loving it. While there are a lot of days I struggle, the empowerment of boudoir is insurmountable. It can quickly remind you that you are beautiful, help you find the confidence and courage you may not have ever had or through life, let slip from your grip.  I recommend boudoir for individuals (dudes and ladies) and would love to do a couple's shoot down the road some day, even if it's with my cat!

Adina has an awesome Blog. It is raw, honest and very inspiring. If you'd like to check it out you can do so here: https://discoveryourstrength.me 

FASHION QUEEN. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER.

This was my second time photographing this beauty. The first time, we did a very soft, classic boudoir shoot. This time, we decided to go for something a little different. We wanted to try out a high contrast, edgy look, and I am loving the result! 

Nicole is a stylist, so that always means awesome wardrobe! If you're looking for an amazing stylist in Toronto, be sure to look up @nicolecontador.stylist on Instagram, she's amazing!

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I'M GLAD I MADE HER CRY. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER.

When I showed Nikita her images for the first time last week, I left the room to let her watch the slideshow on her own, to digest the images in private for the first time.

When I returned to the room, I witnessed Nikita wiping tears away from her eyes. Tears of joy! Tears of Happiness! Tears of Accomplishment! Although I wanted to break down and cry with her, I ran over and gave her a huge hug. I kept it together for her, but as I sit down to write this blog, my eyes are full of tears. Sometimes I can't even believe this is my life. That I get to literally change the way women see themselves. To give women confidence, and show them that they are freakin' beautiful, no matter what societies stupid standards tell us. 

Nikita seeing herself, as a plus size woman who hasn't always had it easy (kids are assholes) looking FIERCE, and absolutely breath-taking, brought her to tears.

For that reason, I am glad the images made her cry. It means she did something challenging, even though she was scared, and for that, she can now and move forward with life feeling like a badass, confident BABE. 

Nikita let herself be vulnerable, and I am so grateful to be given the opportunity to photograph her, and show her ALL the beauty that was ALWAYS there. 

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HOW DID YOU FEEL DURING YOUR SHOOT?

The week leading up to my shoot I was so excited - words cant describe. The day of, I was up bright and early anticipating what was to come! I've always been very shy, so naturally I was upon starting the shoot, but I very quickly became extremely comfortable, and really was just amazed with what I was doing.

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HOW DID YOU FEEL WHEN YOU SAW YOUR IMAGES FOR THE FIRST TIME?

I cried. There were so many emotions running through my body, I can't even begin to explain how I felt! I was excited to FINALLY get to see how everything had turned out, and was I ever happy! It was almost hard to believe that was me !

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DID THE BOUDOIR SHOOT HELP YOUR SELF CONFIDENCE?

Yes, yes, YES! As a woman who is 5'8", 235lbs, I've seen my fair share of hate within the plus sized world and to receive these photos, to see how GREAT I can look, made me feel absolutely amazing! I left my reveal with the biggest smile on my face, and the best feeling running through my body, and that feeling has yet to fade!

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WHAT WOULD YOU SAY TO A WOMAN CONSIDERING A BOUDOIR SHOOT?

DO IT! Book a session and DON'T LOOK BACK! Don't think of  "I need to lose weight first" "I wont look like those other girls" or anything else, just do it and I promise you'll feel like a rock star.

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IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE YOU'D LIKE TO ADD?

I really just want to say thank you to Sam for all her amazing work! Shes one of a kind, and to create the experience that she does for all the ladies that walk through her studio is really unique, I can't wait for the future and to hopefully walk through her studio doors again!

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I'VE ALWAYS BEEN SHY. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER

I recently got to photograph this bombshell! Read on to hear about her experience:

What made you want to do a boudoir shoot?

I wanted to do a boudoir shoot because I have always been shy and insecure. I felt it would help me build some confidence in myself, which it definitely did! It was an amazing experience. I loved everything about it.

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How did you feel during your boudoir shoot?

  I felt beautiful, fierce, and empowered. I was very comfortable it amazing.

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how did you feel when you saw your images for the first time?

 I was amazed and very excited. I couldn't stop smiling they were all perfect , I couldn't choose just one favorite.

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Has doing a boudoir shoot helped your confidence?

YES it definitely has helped my confidence. Now I feel more comfortable in my own skin, and can embrace myself for who I am.

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It is answers like this, that make me feel like I am making a difference in the lives of women. If I can make a woman hold her head a little higher, feel a little sexier, gain her confidence back OR have confidence in herself for the first time, then I've done my job. 

If you'd like more information about a boudoir photo shoot, lets chat! 

MY FIRST COUPLES BOUDOIR SESSION. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER.

I did something a little different this weekend that I had wanted to try for a long time. Couples boudoir!

I was so lucky to photograph this lovely couple, Kristina and Sydney. They were so sweet, patient, easy going, and SO in love. I was in awe watching them interact with each other, they made my job completely effortless. 

We kept the look natural and raw, just like their love.

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How was your experience during the shoot?

K: It was amazing! It was really special and wonderful to be able to just laugh and be myself

S: Honestly, exactly what Kris said, it was magical and so so easy to just... be I guess. We felt so comfortable just doing our thing and trusting that Sam knew how to translate into pictures (which were unreal let me say) 

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How did you feel during the shoot?

K: I felt comfortable! I felt like I could just be myself, and that the whole shoot was just a celebration of our love for one another.

S: I felt like I was living my best life. Anytime I don’t have to wear pants is the best time ;) but also just so so comfortable and present in the moment. Everything was natural and easy and joyous and magical.

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How did you feel when you saw your photos for the first time?

K: Overwhelmed with joy. They’re all so beautiful, and they all show our love so perfectly. 

S: OBSESSED. Everytime I flipped to the next photo I was like “No THIS is my favourite” but they’re all my favourite. 

Also Kristina happy cried. It’s a fact. I was there. 

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Are you happy with the experience?

K: YES. Beyond happy - it’s one of my favourite experiences and I hope we get to do it again. 

S: Absolutely thrilled. Summer shoot 2018?? Please!!??

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As you can tell from the photos, these two are adorable and SO in love.

Also, it is safe to say I now offer couples boudoir! If you want to preserve your memories with your significant other, I would be happy to capture your love for one another. Doing a couples boudoir will allow you to look back on memories of your love years from now. 

BOUDOIR IS MORE THAN JUST PRETTY PHOTOS. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER.

I recently had the pleasure of photographing Alexandra for the second time. I saw a huge difference in her attitude and confidence this time around. She came in confident, comfortable and totally ROCKED her shoot.

Although there are still tough days for us all with body image, boudoir can absolutely help to see yourself in a positive light, and to be a little more gentle on yourself.

Check out Alexandra's experience below.

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Why did you decide to do a boudoir shoot? 

I have always wanted to do a boudoir shoot, but was hesitant for many reasons. I lacked confidence in myself, was unsure of my ability to pose; especially half naked in front of a person I didn’t know. I guess you could say I was too shy and not comfortable in my own skin to do something so amazing, so beautiful.

It was because of my insecurities and lack of confidence in myself that I chose to do a boudoir shoot. Was I nervous and a bit scared, yes, but that all changed the day I met Samantha Kidd. I was lucky enough to do my first boudoir shoot with Samantha last year, and boy was it an experience I will never forget!

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How was your experience during the shoot? 

I did my second boudoir shoot with Samantha at Crave Boudoir in Toronto a month ago, and was yet again blown away by her professionalism, creativity, positivity and determination.

Samantha is both professional and organized; she provided hair and makeup services for you to feel like a Queen as well as lingerie pieces to use during your shoot.

From the very beginning Samantha makes you feel comfortable and takes away any nervousness that you may have. She made me feel beautiful, confident, and happy throughout the entire shoot.

Samantha has taken her business to a different level, she has completed seminars on posing for women of all sizes and helps you with posing to help you look and feel your best. Samantha is so passionate about what she does, she really loves it and you can tell from the moment you meet her in person to the moment you order your images.

My experience was very positive and uplifting. I felt like a new woman, a woman who could stand tall and love every perfect imperfection, every curve and every angle. I am so thankful to have met Samantha and look forward to our future photo shoots together.

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How did you feel after seeing your images? 

I had good butterflies all week awaiting my meeting with Samantha to see my images from our shoot. I was blown away by her presentation! Samantha created a slideshow presentation with uplifting music and positive quotes along with my images from our shoot.

I felt like a princess in a fairytale! I was beyond happy with the magic she created! Her talent, dedication and hard work that she put in blew me away and I could not have been happier!

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Did seeing your images help your self-confidence? 

Yes, yes and YES! There are days where I struggle with loving the body I have, moments where I don’t feel sexy and times where I just wish certain parts of my body were different. Learning to love my body is an ongoing journey that will continue to have its ups and downs.

Working with Samantha has had a positive impact on my body image. Thanks to Samantha my self-confidence has improved and my journey of loving myself is becoming easier each day.

Don’t hesitate like I did. You deserve this, you are worth it, and most importantly it will help you love you for the amazing woman you are, inside and out! When you have confidence in yourself anything is possible!

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As you can tell from Alexandra's words, boudoir has helped her tremendously on her self love journey. I want to help all women be a little easier on themselves, and to hold their heads up a little higher! 

If your interested in learning to love yourself and having the Crave Boudoir experience, lets chat. Feel free to email me to find out more information. 

http://www.craveboudoir.com/contact/

SWEATER WEATHER. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER.

Here is a recent session of the stunning Miss E in her lifestyle boudoir session. 

I've always been a fan of non-traditional lingerie, and this session is just another reason to prove why!  No lacy lingerie, no high heels, no hair blowing in the wind. Just pure and natural beauty.

I've always been a fan of non-traditional lingerie, and this session is just another reason to prove why!

No lacy lingerie, no high heels, no hair blowing in the wind. Just pure and natural beauty.

To some women, feeling empowered can mean different things, which is totally fine!  Some women feel their sexiest when they are dolled up, while others feel sexy "sweatpants, hair tied, chilling with no makeup on", In the words of Drake.  There is no style which is better than the other. Each woman is unique and badass in their own way. Every woman is worthy of feeling beautiful no matter what.

To some women, feeling empowered can mean different things, which is totally fine!

Some women feel their sexiest when they are dolled up, while others feel sexy "sweatpants, hair tied, chilling with no makeup on", In the words of Drake.

There is no style which is better than the other. Each woman is unique and badass in their own way. Every woman is worthy of feeling beautiful no matter what.

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ALL BODIES ARE GOOD BODIES. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER.

At Crave Boudoir, we are inclusive of ALL bodies. 

Bodies with abs, and bodies with jiggly bits. ALL are welcome in my studio, and ALL are important valuable bodies.

There is no one body type that trumps the other. I want to make that clear. 

A woman's body is her choice to do what she wants with. 

If a woman loves working out, that's fine.

If a woman loves tacos, that's fine.

If a woman chooses to have plastic surgery, that's fine.

No one body is better than the other. Our bodies as women ARE SO POWERFUL! Our bodies are our vessels which take us on this adventure called life.

My goal is to make you feel like a damn Queen no matter what your size. I want you to realize that life is NOT ALL ABOUT YOUR BODY!

We are all unique, sexy, beautiful babes. I am so happy to be able to show so many women they are perfect just the way they are. 

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DO SOMETHING THAT SCARES YOU. TORONTO BOUDOIR PHOTOGRAPHER.

Recently, I had the privilege to photograph my friend Miss K.

We met at our past office job. We instantly clicked. You know those people who come into your life and the conversation flows without effort? That's what I had with Miss K.

When Miss K found out I was shooting boudoir on the side, she was intrigued, and we always kind of joked about her coming in for a shoot. Then years later, as we have both moved on to better jobs (LIKE PHOTOGRAPHING AND EMPOWERING WOMEN!) she stepped into my studio. 

We laughed our asses off at the fact that we met in an office, and now I am photographing her half nude. Miss K left feeling like an empowered goddess!

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